only if i could

if i could walk that way
foresee the bumps ahead
only if I could.

ride with the storm
jump off the moon
only if i could.

if i could lie down
for the rest of my life
only if i could.

if i could reach the corals
disappear in the wilderness
only if i could.

if i could find someone
someone to reign in my veins
only if could.

i wish
i got only a wish
to say
i can
only if i could.

the fork

With the fork
Could I choose the pieces of my life
With the puff
Could I breathe my life
or
Could I drown my thirst with bitter water on the rox.
The butts lie everywhere covering the floor
And
Empty bottles adorn the cupboard
but
Can't find the fork
Hidden somewhere in the mess.

Questions And Answers

Down the life,

with so many nooks and spaces unstamped;

with the territories dwelled upon by strangers, known faces & hearts and hypocrites alike;

With the voices

some haunting and others crooning;

With the words

some daunting and many cheering;

and

With the distances

alone, accompanied and crowded;

Moments have caught up

with piles of questions

and stacks of partial answers.

Why I have been shy sometimes

and taken my candor too far the other times?

And,

Why I consorted some

and stayed away from others?

My choices of the moments; I would say.

But who to blame for;

When the choices went awry.

When my chivalrous got unnoticed and looked down upon.

And why someone turned out to be a cipher.

I would ask god

if he's there or she's listening.

Couldn't you make life less capricious?

But would there be charm?

None.

We would have less options and avenues then.

But

There would be a lot less to atone.